Rebecca Nixon

Thoughts, Musings, & Ramblings of a Catholic Housewife

St. Teresa of Avila

“There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers.”

“The tree that is beside the running water is fresher and gives more fruit.”

“Our body has this defect that, the more it is provided care and comforts, the more needs and desires it finds.”

“The feeling remains that God is on the journey, too.”

“Praised be the Lord, who has redeemed me from myself.”

“Let nothing disturb thee; Let nothing dismay thee; All thing pass; God never changes Patience attains All that it strives for. He who has God finds he lacks nothing: God alone suffices.”

Ribbons & Bows or Bow Ties…We KNOW!!

Bows or bow ties?

Bows or bow ties?

We had decided very early on in this pregnancy that we weren’t going to find out Zesty’s gender.  This was for two reasons…1) we weren’t sure how many ultrasounds our insurance would cover and it seemed very imprudent to have an ultrasound just to find out Zesty’s gender and 2) Harold didn’t think I could handle the suspense and I was simply determined to prove him wrong.  Well, he was right and we have discovered if we need to be investing in bows or bow ties!!  To be fair to me, it was very easy to stick to my guns during the first few ultrasounds.  However, considering that I am high risk and therefore having weekly ultrasounds…it gets hard to look at baby week after week, with the ultrasound tech talking about what a good shot she just got and how obvious baby was making it, and not find out!  We decided to share the news with our families while celebrating Christmas.  Their reactions ranged from surprised, to excited, to just a little disappointed…or even crestfallen.  (Thanks for that.)  We aren’t sharing with anyone else and we did instruct our families that this wasn’t something to be shared over social media, etc.  We’ll see how long the secret keeps. 😉 I am happy that we found out and I was able to order something special for Zesty to have at the hospital.  Ribbons & bows or bow ties…who knows?  You’ll have to wait for pictures. 😉

To Nest or Not to Nest…

This is how I am feeling after nesting all day today!  I am ready for a nap!! lol

This is how I am feeling after nesting all day today! I am ready for a nap!! lol

It seems you hear that this is one “symptom” of pregnancy that hits every mamma – no matter what number pregnancy she is on & it has hit me HARD.  I have spent the entire day organizing baby stuff, cleaning, and doing laundry.  I feel like I’ve made NO progress & I am highly frustrated about that.  I’m also very frustrated that I feel like my husband hasn’t bothered to help me.  Poor guy can’t get a break, though, because if he did try to help me it is very likely that I would struggle to not yell at him and demand he get out of my way.  Sometimes he kicks me out of the house when he is trying to get a lot of work done & I would be more of a hindrance than a help.  I’m thinking that I might be kicking him out tomorrow, so I can get more done.  🙂

One thing accomplished tonight - cloth diapers are washed and ready for baby!!

One thing accomplished tonight – cloth diapers are washed and ready for baby!!

Oh, Lord, please give me the grace and humility to appreciate and savor every bit of this amazing blessing.  Please help me to stay calm, keep my patience, and love my family.  Amen.

Litany of Humility

(L)eader: O, Jesus, meek and humble of heart.

(R)esponse: Hear Me.

From the desire of being esteemed… Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being loved… Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being extolled … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being honored … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being praised … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being preferred to others… Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being consulted … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being approved … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being humiliated … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being despised… Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of suffering rebukes … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being calumniated … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being forgotten … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being ridiculed … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being wronged … Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being suspected … Deliver me, Jesus.

That others may be loved more than I… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That others may be esteemed more than I… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That others may be chosen and I set aside… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That others may be praised and I unnoticed… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That others may be preferred to me in everything… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.  

That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should… Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.           

Amen.                                                                                                                                                                               

 

The Hard Way

Harold and I were talking earlier this evening – well, technically yesterday evening, since it is now after midnight and therefore a new day.  🙂  He’s been out of state all week, with the Boxcars, working on their third album.  This has been a bit of difficult week for both of us.  For him, because he’s been away and didn’t want to be.  He didn’t want to go to the boonies of eastern TN, he didn’t want to play, sing, or record.  He’s been a little stressed out and hasn’t slept well at all while he’s been down there.  What did he want?  He wanted to stay home and keep working on getting the house ready for Baby Nixon’s arrival.  He’d finally really focused on what needed to be done to prepare for Zesty and started getting some stuff done.  He didn’t want his mojo and motivation interrupted.  However, he did want his share of the royalties for this album and knew that he needed to go down and work on this investment with the rest of the band, even though he didn’t want to.  So, his best friend and band mate, Ron, picked him up Tuesday afternoon and they headed southeast.  This week has been difficult for me because I missed Harold – pure and simple.  I don’t sleep well without him.  I really needed him on Wednesday (see my Night of Trash post) for everything and I’m missing him tonight, as I sit in my mother’s living room instead of the home that I share with him, in case I go into labor.  I’d much rather have him on labor watch tonight (nothing against my mother because she does rock).  So, my sleep deprived & stressed out husband and I were talking tonight.  We were talking about if I should stay with my mother tonight & how likely it really was that I’d go into labor tonight (highly UNLIKELY).  We were talking about how things were going with the recording (really well) and what time I should expect to pick him up tomorrow.  We were talking about what all I needed to remember to get done before heading out to pick him up tomorrow and then we started talking about Christmas.  Oh how I wish that was a conversation we didn’t have to have…it’s not finished, yet, either.  I’m thankful that we aren’t fighting – we’ve gotten pretty good at being able to communicate and can usually recognize when a misunderstanding/miscommunication is escalating and a conversation is becoming a fight.  So, we truly weren’t fighting but that doesn’t make the conversation any easier.  The general gist of our conversation is that, in the midst of being in the home stretch to get ready for Baby Nixon’s arrival (stressful enough), we have to figure out what in the world we want to do for Christmas & while we want the same thing, we also want two vastly different things.  We are talking about changing up our routine and developing our own Christmas traditions (very GOOD thing) – which means changing up what we’ve been doing as a couple for nearly 6 years and what I’ve been doing my entire life (at least that I remember).  Change is hard and I don’t always handle it well.  Harold pointed out that we are likely to be embarking on a very difficult and rocky time in our marriage.  He is already crazy stressed out, he doesn’t like having to pretend & put on show for the sake of someone’s feelings (he’d much rather be totally honest and genuine about who he is & if you like him or don’t like him, at least your opinion is based on truth and not speculation/assumptions/misconceptions).  He wants to feel free to be himself (can’t blame him there) without having to constantly be on the defensive…it’s tiring when you have to be “on” all the time for someone.  So, here we go, we are getting ready to jump onto the Hard Way of marriage.

I was thinking about this and Harold’s warning after our conversation, wondering what I could do to help lessen the challenge.   How could I ease the load that Harold would be carrying?  Why did it seemed destined to be so hard?  I realized a few things.  It would be hard because it seems part of our fallen nature to seek out the hard way.  We seem to be addicted to making things more difficult than they need to be.  Case in point?  I will disagree with my husband and fight with him, just so I can say that I was right.  Really?  How screwed up is that?  I just want to be right, so I’ll disagree with him and go out of my way to try to prove him wrong, just so I can what…feel superior?  Yup.  Some wife I am.  🙁  I fall to pride and falling to pride leads me to fall to all kinds of other sinfulness.  I KNOW that Harold will never do anything to put me or our family in any kind of physical or spiritual jeopardy.  He will die before purposefully causing us harm in any way.  So, if I know that my husband, who I believe is the head of our home – the priest of our domestic church, has nothing but our absolute best interest at heart (i.e. he wants us all to get to Heaven), then why would I ever feel the need to fight him?  Why do I feel the need to try to one up him or be “better”?  I know that I don’t handle change well and that, sometimes, I’m fighting out of some basic need to feel like I have some control over change.  If I make plans, it can be a real challenge for me to let them go without a fight.  If I’m really honest, it’s not the change I find so scary – it’s the loss of control.  If I continue to be brutally honest, the I’ll admit that the only reason I’m afraid of losing control is because I don’t totally trust anybody else.  Isn’t that sad?  If I’m going to trust anyone, wouldn’t I trust my husband?!?  I mean, I am married to an extremely honest & faithful man.  A man who wants nothing more than to help his family get to Heaven and to get there himself.  A man who loves me beyond words.  I would argue that our capacity for true love is limited by our understanding of and belief in God.  If we don’t believe in Him, if we don’t know Him; then we don’t know love – true love.  We only know what we think is love – a very limited & shallow love-like emotion.  Emotion because without knowing God, then we can’t really understand that true love has nothing to do with emotion at all.  It is always, and simply, a choice.  I am married to a man with an understanding of true love.  He will never leave or abandon me.  He will always choose Heaven for me and our family over any and everything else.  Is he perfect?  No.  None of us are.  But he is good, and he wants to be holy, and he tries so hard, and he loves greatly.  He challenges me to trust God, first and always.  I am married to an amazing and passionate man, who has loved me totally, and who God has used to draw me closer to Him.  I am a blessed woman.  If this is the man that God has blessed me with, then why don’t I totally trust him?  I know that being married means death.  Death to myself & what I want & my selfish desires.  It is only in dying to ourselves that we are free to live for others.  As Harold’s wife, my vocation includes living for him.  I am not supposed to worry about myself – no need to watch my own back, if you will.  Why?  Because I’m supposed to have Harold’s back & by me totally having his back – he is freed to have mine completely (and vise versa).  What a simple and beautiful circle that is.  Ah…my head hurts.  It seems like it should be simple.  It seems like it should be easy.  It should be but it isn’t.  Why is it so hard??  I blame Adam & Eve.  (Thanks mom & dad!)

Poor Adam & Eve, always taking the wrap for our broken & fallen nature.  Now, I’m blaming them for making the easy things hard!  Well, they did.  Before the fall, life was good and it was easy.  It was absolutely natural to us to KNOW God, to love Him, and to love each other.  Gardening, dominion over the land & animals, co-ed relationships…ALL EASY.  No sin – no pride, no lust, no sloth or gluttony or wrath.  Ah, Eden. ♥  Adam and Eve fell by grasping at things that were not for them.  They grasped at equality with God by eating of the one tree they weren’t supposed to eat of.  So, they essentially gave up their (and our) stewardship of the Earth to Lucifer.  What was supposed to come easily now comes with hardship and suffering.  Essentially, sin is forgetfulness.  Adam and Eve forgot their place.  Not only did they both grasp at equality with God, but Eve grasped at the dominion that Adam was given as the first man & Adam allowed her to take what wasn’t his to give.  Eve was told that she would suffer pains in childbirth.  Childbirth was supposed to be EASY!  (A little mind boggling to me at the current season of my life – especially as I am beginning to feel more regular pressure & pain, day by day.)  Our bodies are created for this holy and unique purpose, but, we are disordered.  We are fallen.  So, it is no longer easy.  What occurred to me is this…it is not just the birth process itself that is labor.  That is not the only easy thing that is now painful.  The entire process from conception to a successful birth is HARD.  Think of how many people you know who have so much trouble even conceiving new life in their wombs.  Then think of how common miscarriages are…so common that most doctors won’t bother looking for medical causes of miscarriage (hormone imbalances, other diseases, etc) until a woman has experienced at least 2, if not 3, losses.  So, relationships should be easy – we should be able to love each other without the stain of lust, envy, anger, etc.  We should be able to totally and completely trust each other, without fears of lying & cheating.  We should be able to survive – to have plenty to eat and drink, without devastating & destroying our planet.  We shouldn’t have war, famine, disease, & death raging all over the world…but we do.  Why?  Because our first parents forgot what they were made for, they forgot who they were and they gave up their (and our) birthright to Satan.  When life was easy, in Eden, Adam and Eve were in total communion with God.  They were united with Him.  Satan doesn’t like that.  Why?  Perhaps because he is an a fallen angel.  Not just any angel, either.  He was one of, if not the best of all angels.

Angels are created spiritual beings with no physical bodies.  They live with God in Heaven and the purpose of their creation is to worship God, giving Him glory, and doing His will.  They love God beyond anything we could ever imagine.  Angels are superior to us in so many ways.  They KNOW God, easily.  We don’t.  They are far more intelligent than we are & they understand things that we could never wrap our minds around.  So, we are the infierior creations to Angels.  Inferior but still the most favored and loved of all of God’s creations.  We are His only creations that He chooses to adopt as His children.  Lucifer loves God so fiercely that he can not fathom why God would create something so lowly and limited as a human, give us a gift like free will, and love us so much that He is willing to forgive all, if we just ask.  Satan got angry & jealous & rebelled.  We know how that ends.  He and all the angels who sided with him, along with all the lukewarm ones who tried to play neutral, were cast out of Heaven – FOREVER.  He loves God so fiercely but will never be able to be with Him again.  Satan is eternally removed from God.  Misery loves company & how better than to hurt the one you love the most than by denying them of who they love the most.  Satan can’t have God, so he is going to do everything he can to prevent us from having God, too.  So, when Adam & Eve forgot who they were, when they fell for deception & grasped at equality with God – they gave up their claim, their stewardship, to Satan & he will do everything he can to make our journey to God & Heaven as difficult as possible.  We sin, we suffer, we are forgetful, and we lack the capacity to understand so much.

So, marriage, family, and relationships are REALLY hard and they can really hurt.  Harold and I are about to enter into a more difficult season of our marriage.  Why?  Because we are broken, fallen, and forgetful.  So, how can I try to love my husband and make lighten his load during this difficult season?  I can do this by remembering.  I must remember how much he loves me & our family.  I must remember that he always has my back & will never choose anything that will harm me in anyway.  I must remember that I agreed and chose Harold as my husband.  He is the head of our home & I am the heart.  I must remember my place as the heart & fight to not grasp at the dominion of the head.  I must remember that without me, doing my part as the heart & pumping blood (i.e. life) through the veins of our family, then the head will not be able to function at all.  The head and brain can not function without the heart pumping blood.  Our society recognizes this in a kind of backwards way.  We’ve all heard “Happy wife, happy life.”  Harold tells me all the time that his life depends on me & all he wants is for me to have eternal happiness.  Harold desperately needs me to remember who I am and to fight against my broken and fallen nature of grasping at things that aren’t mine to take.  He needs me to love him and trust him and submit to him.  That doesn’t mean that I am losing anything.  I am not losing control and I have nothing to fear.  In fact, by remembering who I am, by embracing my place as the heart of our home, I gain freedom.  Freedom from fear.  Freedom from forgetfulness.  Freedom to love absolutely and unconditionally.

I am asking for your prayers for my family and all families.  We will all have seasons in our lives that are more difficult that others.  Seasons that make it easier to forget who we are, seasons that tempt us to sin.  May we not only know who we are but may we also be inspired to remember who we are, especially when we are in the middle of the hard way.

 

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Spiritual Bouquet Saturday

Let’s join together in prayer to offer up a spiritual bouquet to heaven! As Christians, we must take action against evil & PRAYER IS ACTION!!! Especially when we invoke the intercession of our Blessed Mother. ♥

spiritual_bouquet_prayer_card_Please take time out today to offer up prayers (or go to Mass) for any intentions you’ve been asked to remember along with the following specific intentions…

-For the souls of all who died in CT, including the gun man
-For all parents who’ve ever buried a child
-For all those who suffer with mental illness
-For all healthcare (mental & physical) workers
-For all those who don’t know God
-For an increase in Faith, Hope, and Charity
-For the leaders of our city, state, country, & world
-For all those who have forgotten & those who have been forgotten
-For all those traveling
-That we may enter into the Christmas season, prepared to celebrate the birth of Christ
-That we may always have the courage to speak the truth in love, as inspired by the Holy Spirit
-For all the people of Israel, the Middle East, and China
-All Marriages & Families
-All Priests & Religious
-The Intentions of Our Holy Father
-All the unborn children

Prayer to the Holy Trinity

Prayer to the Holy Trinity

TrinityIconGlory be to the Father, Who by His almighty power and love created me, making me in the image and likeness of God.

 Glory be to the Son, Who by His Precious Blood delivered me from hell, and opened for me the gates of heaven. 

Glory be to the Holy Spirit, Who has sanctified me in the Sacrament of Baptism, and continues to sanctify me by the graces I receive daily from His bounty.  

Glory be to the Three adorable Persons of the Holy Trinity, now and forever.  

Amen.

The Blessed Trinity

Note from Rebecca: Below is the text of the RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults) night on the Holy Trinity that Harold and I taught in December 2012.  The majority of what is below came from a few sources – most of which are cited.  The one source that is not cited is our RCIA resource book.  We are given several handouts about whatever subject we are teaching about and it is up to us how to use these resources.  Harold and I chose to do some research of our own and to basically use various parts from the resources we were given in combination with the other sources we’d found.  We took a little bit from each and put them together in a way that made sense to us (since we were teaching). 🙂

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In the name of the Father, God the creator of all. The Son, God the Redeemer & fount of mercy, and the Holy Spirit, God the Sanctifier, breath of love who sustains us & gives us new life.

We started with the sign of the cross – we begin so many things with this simple but profound prayer. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. We invoke the Blessed Trinity each time we pray. You have a handout about the sign of the cross. I highly encourage you to study it. What I want to briefly touch on here is that each time you make & pray the sign of the cross, you are invoking the Blessed Trinity – expressing a belief in that mystery. I also wanted to point out the way many people position their hand when making the sign of the cross. It reminds us of two great and important mysteries of our faith – three fingers together to remind us of the Blessed Trinity – three persons in one God and two fingers together to remind us of the dual nature – the hypostatic union of Christ. He was at once totally, 100% divine and totally 100% human.

The Blessed Trinity

The one God is three divine Persons, each having the fullness of the divine nature, who live in a perfect communion of love. This is the central mystery of our faith.

So what does that mean?

A mystery, if you recall, is something that is UNKNOWABLE without direct revelation from God. The Trinity is the central mystery of our faith and life because it reveals who God is in his inmost being. (CCC 234). This mystery is not illogical, contradictory, or unreasonable, nor is it opposed to a belief in the one God. In such cases as the Blessed Trinity and the Incarnation (the “enfleshment” of the second person of the Trinity as Jesus Christ), we humans with finite minds try to understand a divine and, therefore infinite reality. Our minds are wonderful creations but are still limited. A blind person must take it on faith when we say that the light in the kitchen is on. Throughout life, we are obliged to, because of our limitations, to accept things on the testimony of reliable sources. *insert quotes on reliable sources here?* Reason alone could never conceive of the reality of three persons in one nature, nor for that matter, of one person, Jesus Christ, having two natures (divine and human). All our human capabilities, aided by God’s supernatural Revelation, do not enable us to grasp or comprehend the mysteries of the Infinite such as the Blessed Trinity. The whole of our supernatural knowledge, just because it is the very nature of SUPERnatural, is beyond us.

The existence of the Trinity is hinted at in the Old Testament of the Bible.

Gn 1:26 ” Then God said: “Let US make man in OUR image, after OUR likeness. “

It is boldly proclaimed in the New Testament. Three events in the life of Jesus show us the Trinity: his conception, his baptism, and his Transfiguration. When the angel came to Mary to invite her to be the Mother of God, Mary understandably asked how it was possible. Gabriel replied: “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy, the Son of God.” (Lk 1:35) At Jesus’ baptism, the Heavens opened and the Spirit of God descended upon him accompanied by the voice of the Father saying : “This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.” (Mt 3:17; see also Mk 1:11; Lk 3:22) During his public ministry, shortly before he began his final journey to Jerusalem, Jesus took the apostles Peter, James, and John to a high mountain where he was transfigured before them. His appearance was transformed, his clothes beame dazzling white, and with him appeared Moses and Elijah, symbolizing the Law and the Prophets – that is the entire Old Testament. In the course of this astounding event – which, for a moment, revealed Jesus’ own divine glory – a cloud, representing the Holy Spirit, overshadowed the three apostles, and a voice once again proclaimed: “This is my Son, my Chosen; listen to him!” (Lk 9:35)

There are other places within the New Testament where the Godhead of the Son, the Holy Spirit, and even the relationship of the Father and the Spirit are revealed. Jesus says: “I and the Father are one.” (Jn 10:30). In Acts, Peter rebukes a fellow Christian: “Why has Satan filled your heart to lie to the Holy Spirit…? You have not lied to men but to God.” (Acts 5:3-4) Finally, in John we hear Jesus say : “But when the Counselor comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, who proceeds from the Father, he will bear witness to me.” (Jn 15:26)

One of the clearest scripture verses, that supports the doctrine of the Trinity, is Mt 28:19. In Jesus’ commission to his apostles, it is plainly revealed that the three Persons belong to a single Godhead. “batizing…in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.” Jesus uses the singular “name”, not “names”, to show us that all three Persons are one God.

There are three Persons in God and only one nature. Simply, nature answers the question “What?” while person answers the question “Who?” According to Bishop Fulton J. Sheen “A person in the Trinity does not mean the same as a person in this world. A person in the Trinity means a relation or a relationship.” Bishop Sheen used this example to illustrate “Remember your chemistry. What is the chemical symbol for water? H2O. That is its nature. It has only ONE nature BUT is it possible to have various relationships within that one nature? Most certainly. It can be liquid, ice, or steam. Is the liquid a differnt nature from H2O? No. The ice? No. The steam? No. Somehow, the three are in one. Just as in the Sun, there is substance, light, and heat – yet only one Sun.” The actual distinctions among the three divine persons is in their relation to one another. Each of the divine persons is God, whole and entire. Although the divine persons are inseparable in what they are and do, it is possible and common to identify “works” that are proper to each. Generally, The Father, the first person of the Blessed Trinity, is refferred to as the Creator. He is an uncreated Being who created all things from nothing; he is the first cause. He is a loving Father who continually cares for his people, drawing them to himself in mercy. In his plan born of love, God created us to share his life forever. Sin, however, cut us off from God and from our destiny. Nevertheless, in his great mercy, the Father did not put an end to us or abandon us.

The Son, the second Person of the Blessed Trinity, is also called the Redeemer. In his perfect knowledge of himseld, the Father begot his one Word, the Son. The Son is not created by the Father, but begotten; he is the uncreated image of the Father. The Son is completely divine and coequal with the Father, and nothing was made without him. He became Jesus Christ, taking on a complete human nature while remaining comepletely divine. “When the time had fully come, God sent forth his Son, born of a woman.” (Gal 4:4) The Father sent forth the Son to reveal his plan, to show us how to live, and to pay the price for our sins. His sacrifice of his Passion and Death are the fullest sign of the total self-giving nature of God’s love.

The Holy Spirit, the third Person of the Blessed Trinity, can also be called the Sanctifier. In their perfect love for each other, the Father and the Son spirated the Holy Spirit. Spiration, according to Merriam-Webster.com, means

1) a obs: the action of breathing as a creative or life-giving function of the Deity

b (1): the act by or manner in which the Holy Spirit proceeds from the Father

or from the Father & the Son  (2): the relationship subsisting by virtue of this procession

2) obs: the action of breathing as a physical function of man and animals

The Holy Spirit is not created by the Father and the Son, but proceeds from them as an uncreated divine Person – we can think of this as a divine “sigh of love”. The Holy Spirit is completely divine and coequal with the Father and the Son. He is the Spirit of God that moved over the waters at creation; he brings about a new creation in each soul through the grace of the sacraments of the Church. Once Christ, the Son, had paid the price for our sins, the Holy Spirit came to activate the new and eternal life won for us by Christ’s redemptive self-giving. “When the time for Pentacost was fulfilled, they were all in one place together. And suddenly, there came from the sky a noise like a strong driving wind, and it filled the entire house in which they were. Then, appeared to them tounges as of fire, which parted and came to rest on each one of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in different tougnes, as the spirit enabled them to proclaim.” (Acts 2:1-4) The Holy Spirit empowers and guides the Church to fulfill her mission to preach to Good News of salvation to the whole world and to make God’s life available to all men and women, without exception.

Pope Benedict 16th first encyclical was “Deus Caritas Est”. That means “God is Love.” So many people get so enthusiastic about that statement. “God is love.” It is unique to the Christian faith. A Muslim or a Jew would simply say “God loves.” That’s true – he loves the world. But love is more than something He does. “God IS love” – love is his being – it’s who he is! What we sometimes miss is that, by saying “God is love.”, we are expressing the Blessed Trinity. To say that “God is love”, we are saying that there is play within the one God of a lover, the beloved, and the love that they share. We say in the creed “We believe in ONE GOD” but that one God has revealed himself to be a play of lover, beloved, and loved. (Fr. Robert Barron)

The Blessed Trinity is a mystery. Every mystery of faith flows from and is connected to the mystery of the Blessed Trinity. We were created for love; we live to respond to and then grow in that love; we die to self so that we may be resurrected to enter that love forever at the end of our earthly life. We will never, in this life, be capable of fully understanding and comprehending this. It is just not possible. We experience in these matters an insufficiency, as sense of sad resignation. We feel inadequate, left out – and this is right. We have, therefore, Heaven to look forward to and work toward. Our faith, as Christ himself so often emphasized, is of central importance to our lives. It gives us the strongest, most certain assurance that the world of the supernatural is not an empty dream. Our faith convinces us that the Trinity of God the Father who made us out of love, God the Son who came among us to save us out of love, and God the Holy Spirit who infuses us with love and who sustains us in the Church will be revealed to us at the very hour Jesus opens his arms to welcome us into Heaven with the words: “Come, O blessed of my Father; inherit the Kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. (Mt 25:34). This Kingdom is God’s Kingdom, the Kingdom of the Blessed Trinity – our true home. (CCC 102, 232-260).

Glory be to the Father, Who by His almighty power and love created me, making me in the image and likeness of God.  Glory be to the Son, Who by His Precious Blood delivered me from hell, and opened for me the gates of heaven. Glory be to the Holy Spirit, Who has sanctified me in the Sacrament of Baptism, and continues to sanctify me by the graces I receive daily from His bounty.  Glory be to the Three adorable Persons of the Holy Trinity, now and forever.  Amen.

Baby Nixon aka Zesty

Baby Nixon

Baby Nixon

I went to the doctor today for an ultrasound and got a fantastic picture of Baby Nixon (Zesty).  I thought I’d share it along with a couple pictures of me from my early days on the outside. 🙂  Any resemblance?  As baby’s gender won’t be known until his or her big day, guesses abound as to if Zesty is a girl or boy.  Most people are guessing boy – in fact, when my stepfather saw this picture he declared “I told you Zesty was a boy!”.me baby 2

me baby

Encountering Christ

JP2“[If you wish to encounter Christ] above all, create silence in your interior. Let that ardent desire to see God arise from the depth of your hearts, a desire that at times is suffocated by the noise of the world and the seduction of pleasures.”
– Pope John Paul II